#misery and pain. you know how it is

[just-spacetrash]

the 'what if you played it a little risky' post literally Changed my life but i cant fujkign find it in my blog because its. a tiktok screenshot

[badnew2005]

i’ve said it before and better but literally. clip show “now you’re infecting my memory with your memory, and i can’t even remember my own life correctly” . that’s what happens with roller rink. we Know of course that’s not what happened. it’s Them telling the story, there’s some element of they truly believe this happened, that’s how They remember it, but on some level they’re each aware this is all their fantasies. it’s like. remember when i was cool and nice and successful and you all liked me and yeah i do remember that of course i remember that. it’s warmer and softer. they’re almost fifty and still Stuck. it would hurt too much. they were always destined to end up like this. but remember when we weren’t. it was some cruel twist of fate that made us like that do you remember. i remember! life was Good. we both know it wasn’t. and we both know it isn’t now. but that’s what memories do, you can twist them into something more comfortable. something that fits with your current narrative. “you can’t do this. every time you misremember something you like run the risk of altering reality …. i’m saying like how you remember something sort of like, becomes reality …. no it doesn’t change reality. reality is reality i’m just saying it becomes your reality” so let’s make this our reality. let’s play pretend.

[thedeerman]

guys i’ve written so much angst and sadness for this fucking story arc i’m so ready to write fluff again 😭 i literally have lists of shit i’m gonna include and romantic ass fucking quotes and shit, y’all better be ready for radioapple romance cause as soon as shit finishes hitting the fan you’re gonna fuckin get it 😤

[mad-hunts]

have i ever talked about how barton is genuinely jealous of people who seem happy because he feels so hollow a majority of the time that even when he's 'happy,' he's not really happy? because i just 😭 yeah...

[seilon]

I wish I could tell every young person with a uterus (especially with bad cramps and/or dysphoria and/or depression, etc) that there is a decent chance they just straight up don’t need to live with that. don’t let the stigma surrounding contraceptives and the expectation that you should just ride it out and suffer win. for the love of god if there’s a chance you can lighten or even stop your period and it’s symptoms all-together, unless there’s a legit health concern, your doctor should at least make you aware of that option. I want every young person to know that “birth control” is not just for birth control and it has the potential to make your life infinitely easier to live. do not give in to anti-pill propaganda im serious

[reikunrei]

sorry to be a sicko freak, but if they do something like have the rest (or some) of our main crew have their own vecna visions, I kind of really really want some aspect of will’s and/or mike’s to be like. either warped memories or just false visions where they’re especially homophobic and nasty to each other. I want one of them to have a vision that starts off maybe kind of sort of like a confession, and then turns into the other being totally disgusted. I want that horrible dread and fear of being rejected for who you love to be front and center. because oh how good would it be for them to have to face that fear and internalized shame and fight against it, assuring each other that the hatred is all a lie

[g0ddyke]

listen i'm gonna be real for a minute and just say that, just because You can't imagine living a fulfilling life in my position doesn't mean it isn't possible, and maybe you should keep how Unbearable you think My reality would be to your fucking self.

[anaalnathrakhs]

i keep fucking remembering when i was talking with my mom that family reunions were very difficult for me and it would be a huge relief when i move out and far away to not have to be present anymore (like ofc i was mincing my words, but i said verbatim it would be way more comfortable for me to not be there anymore) and she was like :) oh dear you'll always gonna be invited :) you're always going to have your place :) FUCKING ASSHOLE

[bidokja]

so like. was anyone. was anyone gonna warn me that. the "baekyeon and haero" chapters in mystic prince would just. rip my heart directly out of my chest. and then shred it into pieces right in front of me. was anyone gonna warn me. was anyone gonna-

[termagax]

like i think to fish theyre just both people who shouldve died a long time ago and now they arent allowed to. because they need each other. and they both crave that and resent it.

[9th-nueves]

@indigo-constellation DUDE a haruspex route utopian ending fic sounds SICK AS HELL. Please do share if you end up posting it! That one is a truly unexplored concept in the fandom but god if it isnt one of the most interesting

[pepprs]

not to be a pain-crazed wild animal. i KNOW i do this every time. but p*riods are so fucking crazy. like my cr*mps are so bad my body is trying to strangle itself but im awake and i need to be at work in 2 hrs and get thru an entire 9 hr workday as if im not in excruciating pain and im gonna bring my heating pad and my p*in r*lief cr*am if you catch my drift (💀) and i’ll need to use them DURING a busy day in which i will not see any other ppl who get periods in person and using them is gonna be a whole awkward thing. like omg. this is not fucking normal lol

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

if anyone needs me i will be rewatching trigun 98 and tristamp over and over until my brain explodes

[fridayyy-13th]

i had so many things to do today, but i only wound up doing two. the two simplest things on the list, in fact. putting tabs on my sheet music and writing dates in my planner. no actual homework. (or more accurately, late work.) now a week of three classes' worth of work all has to be done tomorrow, and i already made plans with my friend for that afternoon. it's 1:32 in the morning. what am i doing anymore.

[puppmeo]

And the cycle begins anew . As it does every week

[medicinemane]

Seriously, it would be a mercy to kill me. I'm begging for help dying. Do you not see why it's fucking torture to keep my alive while living with her? I'll never escape her, like there's just no practical way to make it happen

And yet, till I get my act together and find a way to die already, show must go on